Where I had shopped off sales racks at Ross, Wendy James got rich men to buy her expensive, strappy lace underwear.I became her for a while until she led me into a car crash, a meth addiction, and Manny, an abusive boyfriend who was kind in that he bought me foundation that matched my skin when he left me with black eyes.There was “Trained Teens 3,” the movie that helped me buy my first car, a red convertible that made me feel so L. My skin prickled as I remembered how I’d kept the top down so I could see the palm trees, even when the wind gave my skinny arms goosebumps. But then I couldn’t find a job doing anything else.It had been my ride to anonymous mansions in the Valley where the cold hands of spray-tanned dudes would slam my hips on top of their dicks. The endless rejection after rounds of casting calls for bit parts in TV pilots that never got picked up anyway mixed with a bank account that always seemed to be plummeting weighed heavy.Prioritizing Sex Communicating Your Sexual Needs Creating a Romantic Environment Community Q&A Sex can be an important part of a romantic relationship with another person.Having sex with a person you love may be important to you to establish intimacy and reconnect with them.
Yet another dude had created yet another fake profile account for the porn star I used to be.I hadn’t seen Wendy James in so long, and with the flood of memories, I realized that I missed her. And now here she was, brought back to life by some fucking guy on Twitter. I told myself I’d only do it until I had saved enough money to become a real actress.Was reporting her just deleting her all over again? I assuaged my guilt by tithing, giving 10 percent of what I earned to the Church.She wrote terrible poetry in a paperback journal as the waves tickled her toes at Zuma.She was the kind of woman who let the colors of the sunset dictate her mood, happiest when the pinks and purples of the Santa Monica sky swirled into calm, after the day’s scenes had been shot and she’d tucked her checks into her bank account.